Tuesday, November 8, 2016

जब से तुम हम-नसीब हो गए

जब से तुम हम-नसीब हो गए,
हम ज़िन्दगी के और क़रीब हो गए।

ढूँढते तुम्हें गर्द-गलीयों की ख़ाक छानी हमने,
तुम मिले सभी रास्ते नजीब हो गए।

तुम्हारे इंतज़ार में घर सजाया हमने,
इस क़द्र कि ख़ुद बेतरतीब हो गए।

ख़ामोशी से जिन्हें दोस्त समझते रहें हम,
मुँह खोला तो वो रक़ीब हो गए।

दर्द तुम्हारा सीने में छुपाये रखा,
जब बयान किया तो अदीब हो गए।

ऊँचीं इमारतों के साये 'शजर' पे पड़ते हैं,
शहर ने दौलत कमाई, रहने वाले ग़रीब हो गए।

[हम-नसीब: Sharer of fate; नजीब: Excellent, Noble, Best; बेतरतीब: Disheveled, Disordered; रक़ीब: Enemy; अदीब: Scholar; शजर: Tree]


Friday, October 7, 2016

पल की ख़बर नहीं

पल की ख़बर नहीं,
सदियों का हिसाब रखते हैं।
नैनों में उधार की नींद,
किराए का ख़्वाब रखते हैं।

गर रूठ जाए कोई तो मना लो,
चला जाए तो बुला लो।
पहल करने वाले
ख़ुदा का ख़िताब रखते हैं।

उछाल दो सपनों को आकाश में,
कुछ उड़ जाएँगे पर लगाकर, कुछ गिरेंगे वापस हथेली पे।
बोना, सींचना ज़मीं में उन्हें,
हक़ीक़त ख़्वाब शादाब करते हैं।

'शजर' के कट जाने से बहार कहाँ रुका करते,
कब अशार रुके हैं
ज़ुबाँ के कुचल जाने से,
कुछ आग कहाँ आब से थमते हैं।

                                             - ताबिश नवाज़ 'शजर'

[ख़िताब: Title, Epithet, Honor; शादाब: Prosper, Grow; शजर: Tree; अशार: Poetry; आब: Water]

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Years of slowness



Soul is a slow creature,
distastes things done in haste.
It loves tiny moments,
seeks each of them,
to sniff, kiss and embrace.

Mother says to work slow
for soul to come out on the surface,
else it sinks back.
And, it then takes
years of slowness
to bring forth the creature
exiled in ones inner recess.

Years of slowness first appeared in Temper Literary Review

Memories of a parched land



I saw you, for the first time,
Yet you looked like
An old, loving memory.

As if by your absence
You lived
By my side, all along.

Then you moved on,
As clouds move past,
Without rain, over a parched land.

Yet, some other time,
When I may see you,
I would be drenched,

In memories
Of times, I wished
But could never spend.

Memories of a parched land first appeared in Temper Literary Review

Refugee


She is fleeing her homeland. Not out of desire, but to survive. She is not nameless, yet a name robs her of the unique identity, she shares with many, who had earlier fled, or are fleeing, and will flee till the very end of time.
Refugees are a race of their own. Moving in space, settling in time.
She is packing her baggage to be carried for the journey and hard times peering at her. She has acquired a sudden adeptness at judging the usefulness of her belongings.
This one goes there. That one is left scattered. She occasionally stops, and holds some of her belongings in her hand for too long. By too long, one should not infer a period of minute or so. Given the pace of events surrounding her, a couple of seconds is enough to reach her decisions.
Therefore, when nostalgia holds her hand, she only takes moments to relive the memory associated with the concerned belongings. Then she moves on, but not without sighing. With each sigh, she feels the weight of memories increasing in her, for she believes, that sighing sucks out the past trapped in those physical objects. She clearly has less understanding of time and its doings, for we know, with each passing moment, the past already gets buried in her, making her a mound of time.
Suddenly, she has become aware of her condition. The weight of memories is compromising her movement. She looks for one thing, in which she would condense all that weight. The metaphorical spade as some would say, to dig the mound of time, that with each digging would disturb the contours of time, and thus the past itself, but that is how memory works, and isn’t past a sum total of past, present and beyond?
Past, with time, changes.
She is beholden by a sudden desire to return, in time and in space. One would say, what a travesty, an urge to return to a place, where she already is, and which she would soon forsake. But, that is how nostalgia, a child born out of wedlock, between time, space and the individual, works, preserving past in its sheen and pristine, making it a home in time, to which a traveler forever travels to return and take refuge.
Forever travels.
She acts on her desire, for a refugee’s actions are not entirely shorn of inner desires, and we must not, in sympathizing, strip of whatever residual free will is left in her.
She makes the selection, and swiftly moves on.
She now divides her jewelry into two parts. The more valuable ones, she carefully seals in a piece of dirty cloth, as if conferring on them a cloak of invisibility, against the prying eyes of bandits and other such creatures, whom she expects to meet in her journey ahead. She knows her trick to be old, and would be exposed, by the discerning eyes, for they would know where and what to search. Yet, she goes ahead with it, acting on a slim hope, which for her, a refugee, is a reason enough to act.
The purity of a refugee’s hope is unmatched.
She hides the sealed jewelry in one of her bags, the one she would put under her head, as a pillow, for a restful sleep. An object that would provide, by virtue of its form, and deny, by the quality of its content, her sleep at the same time. If the content of the bag is not enough to make her attentive during her somnolent hours, she would loop the straps of the bag around her neck and armpit, almost making it a noose, which would tighten, if the bag is covetously pulled, hurling her to awareness in an instant.
A refugee has to foresee direst of consequences.
She is now putting on all her less expensive jewelry, not out of aesthetics or sense of fashion, but to be noticeable to the greedy eyes of some official, and to offer them, when need be, in return of some favors, for favors would be few and seekers many.
And, when she would reach her destination, if any such thing would ever exist for her, she would deck herself and other members of her family, with all her jewelry, for she cannot afford to put them in some hotel rooms or whatever.
And, then she would sleep, with an actual pillow, adorning all her jewelry, and not the other way round. Should anyone rouse her and ask, where are you, she would reply, I am in such and such place, always naming her hometown, one way or another, for she really drifts back there, for she, a refugee, never rests, travelling even in her sleep.

Refugee first appeared in Temper Literary Review

All Night



When came the dark night,
I stabbed her
And drew some ink to write.

With this ink
I scribbled a poem
On the doors of my beloved.

The fuming ink
Spewed heat
That the doors could not bear

The doors burned
And groaned in pain
Which the balm of
Frozen relation could not contain.

All night

With one hand
I kept caressing them
And with the other
I kept burning them.

All night….

All Night first appeared in eFiction India Volume 3, Issue 2

Winter Came Early



Winter came in the morning. Actually, it came sometime around the midnight. He was sleeping then. Or, as he puts it - weaving his dreams. He often uses such poetical tricks, to force upon his thoughtful side, on few acquaintances he has. In reality he was busy sleeping then, recuperating from his day's work, preparing himself for an yet another day of patterned chores and timely activities.
Winter, may be because it was untimely, came furtively inside his room, through a narrow opening in the window. He intentionally keeps it open, to allow morning light to seep and invade his eyes, in case the alarm clock fails to maul his senses.
Winter began to gently caress his warm exposed flesh. A feeble shivering ran through his body. He forsook his half-woven dreams and hurled himself to awareness. It was dark then. Therefore, he failed to identify winter lurking, diffusing inside his room. He attributed his shivering to his poor diet and daily fatigue. He turned to the other side of the bed and slept shivering.
Winter was cold. It needed warmth. It clung to his body and began devouring its heat. It had sucked out heat even from thick mattresses and heavy wooden chairs. Beings such as these largely remain unimpressed and indifferent to usual winter's overtures.
Before the morning could come or the alarm clock would croak, his own sound of heavy breathing woke him up.
By that time winter, who came with a diffidence of a leper forcibly sent to a social gathering, had assumed the ownership of his house. It was whiplashing his exposed flesh, making him shiver every time.
Stooped and quivering, he went over to his window. He sensed the wintry air. Sudden arrival of winter confounded him, almost without meaning. He, however, did not insist for one. It was acceptable in his times. Pressing for meaning was taboo and, more importantly, childish. It was only sought to explain the simplest, safest phenomena.
He looked up in the sky, and quite strangely, looked into it, for nothing was up there. No moon, no stars. The sky seemed vaporous. He found it fleeing away.
He had known nothingness associated with the sky, of nights when he had stared above, nothingness had stared back at him, but now, wherever he looked, nothing returned his gaze, the sky simply moved away, revealing yet another shifting layer of nothingness, which avoided his stare as if ashamed of some untold conspiracy.
The sun too was late in its coming. And, when it did come, it lacked its youthful exuberance, probably the first time ever, showed signs of fatigue of the journey it daily makes to come at his window.
The subdued sun was disconcerting. He, vaguely, understood, by then, that winter has come. He now only needed a factual confirmation, may be a news report. Feeling of cold, though important, in his times, is inadequate, and can be dismissed, unless a piece of news approves it. Such feelings are even insufficient to prepare him for the coming winter, for it requires certain dresses, and unless everyone wears them, he would find them hard to put on. Still he can put them on during nights but in daylight he conforms to the prevailing behavior and manners. He often expresses this contradiction in his poetry. Once he wrote:
What darkness of night reveals
The deceptive daylight hides
Is a twenty-first century man
A time hidden from his times.
Some who understood had laughed, and some who did not, also laughed. For, in his times, laughter conveys understanding.
The shifting sky arrested his gaze and kept it motionless for a while, his eyes, reflecting nothingness, reflected sky. Two emptiness united by a conduit of vision. His reveries were broken by a series of burr sound. It emanated from his mobile phone. It was a weather alert. Winter was now confirmed. A foreboding took him over. However, it suddenly vanished, when the same mobile phone, owing to its design, wished him a wonderful Sunday morning. He stood motionless, recollecting his days, when he had no mobile phone, and how he used to reach his work place even on holidays, and used to return, somewhat relieved, on being revealed that the office is closed.
A thankful smile adorned his face. However, he was more thankful to winter, for its unforeseen kindness by choosing to come on a Sunday morning. Last year it caught him unaware, in the evening, while he was returning from the office. The next day his efficiency at work had gone down.
By coming on Sunday, winter gave him an opportunity to prepare for days ahead. He quickly opened his closet and took out all his woolen garments. They were musty and needed washing before being worn. He collected them in one bag. He collected all his other clothes for laundry. He forgot his shivering. He felt a surge of energy within him. Sunday was coming alive, as an idea, where man distances himself from his daily chores, prepares to groom his inner and outer worlds, pushing boredom away, making life interesting and bearable for the rest of week.
Winter also saved his few bucks on hair cut. He avoids hair cut during winters. He puts on a woolen cap to hide his growing hair. And, even if he removes his cap, prolonged wearing makes the hair flat and settled. Though he looks funny, but that's okay with him.
The saved money, although paltry, kept him indecisive for a while. He vacillated between purchasing old books from Mr. Cohen, who sells books in the downtown on Sundays, or getting himself a few pieces of fried chicken from Caesar's. The dilemma, as an assured indecisiveness, one associated with pleasure, remained on his face when he left for the launderette.

Winter Came Early first appeared in Flash Fiction Magazine (http://flashfictionmagazine.com/blog/2015/01/28/winter-came-early/)